Today

Today has been a weird day. I've had a lot on my mind. Last night nothing seemed right, nothing made sense, I was lost and confused. I stayed in that state of confusion until about midnight. After talking with Matthew, I didn't seem as lost. So today, I've been running everything that happened last night through my head over and over. Just trying to make sense of everything that went on. I know it turned out okay, and seemingly for the better, but I just can't wrap my head around how things started out, and went on for a few hours.

Something else I've been thinking about is how I've became "distant" from some friends I had in high school. I still wish I had the same strong friendships I had in high school. I use to be almost sisters with certain people until I moved off to college...I really miss being best friends and almost sisters with Brittany D., she was like the sister I never had. we moved on to separate parts of our lives but we forgot to take each other with us. Since we are both in college now and in different places, it's like we've forgotten. I have never forgotten those friends that I had that were really good. They always hold a place in my heart and I want to start these friendships up again.

Being at college hasn't been the worst though. I have met the love of my life. We've been dating almost 2 years now. I have also met some new friends and this year I have an awesome roommate. She's much better than the one last year. But even though I make new friends I can never replace the close ones I had before and still kind of have. (Brittany, Jennifer, Amber)